the night.

The night is always the hardest time for me. I can have a great day but if I don't have any exciting plans for the evening, I get sad as soon as the sun goes down. Why is that? 

I have talked to several people about this, and most of them say that they feel the same way. My mom says that it is because you can't see as much of the world around you without the sun and you feel a sense of danger. That may be part of it. But for me, I just can't seem to enjoy the night because that is when I feel the lowest. I start to get sad and as soon as I crawl into bed, and like I'm on a time clock or something, the waterworks begin. I hate it. I think to myself...

"You are stronger than this." 

"You have a wonderful life, so why are you such a cry baby?" 

"Why are you so weak?!"

"You know this is going to make you look like crap in the morning"...ha

But here's the thing that I have realized. Life is extremely challenging no matter what hardships your facing...so everybody has the right to cry. Everybody faces times in their life when they feel that nothing can make them happy, right? Right. And who cares if crying all the time makes me a weak person...at least I'm being honest with how I feel. And is being weak always a bad thing? No, because those times teach us what true strength really is.

So it feels good to tell myself "I have the right to cry!", but I also have the strength to dry my tears and trust that everything is going to be okay. As my greatest friend always tells me..."this is NOT the end."

And it's not the end!  We aren't always guaranteed another day, but when we lay our heads down at night there is always the hope of waking up to at least one more day on this earth. And that should be enough to pull anybody through a hard night. 

So enjoy your night, whether you stay up past midnight or go to bed early. You are going to be fine, that is a guarantee:)

Goodnight!